I think it's because I'm going on this short trip (to give a paper at an academic conference) amidst so many other stressful things in my life right now. I just defended my dissertation and I'm doing the final editing and paperwork for that; I'm in the middle of a huge move to a new home; I'm teaching an intensive summer course; I'm swamped with grading; and I haven't been able to exercise, sleep enough, eat right lately, so physically I feel off too. Basically this is like a compounding stress for me today.
I know that SOAR doesn't necessarily do as much for anticipatory anxiety as it does when we're actually on the plane and in flight.
I do plan to meet the pilots. I did do the strengthening exercise last week (although I've always had trouble focusing or having a palpable moment of connection to work with), and I know from experience how much SOAR has helped me in the past couple years.
I just hate this feeling and can't wait for my trip to be over with. Hopefully once I get there I can just enjoy the conference, the city, the hotel, etc. And then celebrate when I get back safely with that hurdle behind me. But if I could hit some kind of fast-forward button, I would.
Any words of comfort or wisdom?
And if anyone wants to track me, I'll post my info on that board. Flying this evening and then again Saturday morning.
Many thanks,
Meghan



