hi everyone! i haven't been on here in forever. after only 2 flights in a 14-yr period i used the tools i learned here to manage my fears and get flying
again. that was 4 years ago and since then, i've been to LA, met a guy, went to florida for a mexican cruise with him 4 months later, traveled together to
aruba, the bahamas, went to daytona 500 with some friends, and also had a last-minute unplanned international flight for my grandmother's funeral, got
engaged, now we are going to myrtle beach this weekend while also planning our honeymoon. had i not got on a plane these past few years i'd probably still
be single as i would have messed up my relationship avoiding travel, i would have missed my grandmother's funeral which would have been very upsetting, and
i would have missed seeing a lot of neat things all over the world, not to mention i'd probably be dreading my wedding day since it would mean flying for
the honeymoon. letting go of the hold that this fear had over me has made a big difference in my life and i have also applied some of the lessons to other
stressful things in my life.
unfortunately, it has been a while and i haven't practiced everything, partly because i got used to having normal flights and forgot that i still have to work at it, as the fear is still there in the back of my mind i just have to focus on managing it and replacing the bad thoughts with good ones.
it has been very stressful lately with life changes affecting my feelings of security on top of the daily stresses of all of the things i need to get done, my 3 jobs, trying to find a house. today was a bad day with both people at work and family/friends hurting my confidence with certain things they said. i'm supposed to fly on saturday and probably there is a subconscious stress worrying that i will freak out again. i used to consciously freak out for weeks so it is still an improvement but i think with all the other stuff it is piling up.
i don't really feel anymore that i will freak out the way i used to, since i have had so many successful flights where i felt okay. but i still feel like there are times it is harder to stick to the management plan than at others. i guess i'm hoping that just by coming in here for the next few days it will remind me of the things i learned and the realizations that hit me back then that "snapped me out of it" and changed my perspective.
unfortunately, it has been a while and i haven't practiced everything, partly because i got used to having normal flights and forgot that i still have to work at it, as the fear is still there in the back of my mind i just have to focus on managing it and replacing the bad thoughts with good ones.
it has been very stressful lately with life changes affecting my feelings of security on top of the daily stresses of all of the things i need to get done, my 3 jobs, trying to find a house. today was a bad day with both people at work and family/friends hurting my confidence with certain things they said. i'm supposed to fly on saturday and probably there is a subconscious stress worrying that i will freak out again. i used to consciously freak out for weeks so it is still an improvement but i think with all the other stuff it is piling up.
i don't really feel anymore that i will freak out the way i used to, since i have had so many successful flights where i felt okay. but i still feel like there are times it is harder to stick to the management plan than at others. i guess i'm hoping that just by coming in here for the next few days it will remind me of the things i learned and the realizations that hit me back then that "snapped me out of it" and changed my perspective.
