1 1/2 years ago, I bought the MP3 course and it has helped immensely, flew from NY to Florida a few times. to San Francisco for work. To Thailand and Cambodia
for work. To India for work. I was a world traveller! Have my global route map on flightmemory.com. Even did short hops to VT and Buffalo.
Definitely nervous but practised the strengthening exercises and the 5-4-3-2-1 exercies.
So I went to Florida to visit mom. Front along the east coast, no problem a little bumpy (pilots apologized) but I felt great. Imagined I was skimming a choppy sea (works better for me than Jell-o)
Got to PBI Tuesday night for the return flight and there was a huge thunderstorm over the airport, every TV in the airport bar was tuned to the "emergency weather frequency" talking about hail toradoes, cloud tops of 40,000 feet. The sky looked purple, black and greenish like I had never seen before, and well, I saw a funnel cloud (always wanted to see a tornado but not when I wasabout to get on a plane) weather was freaky. Didn't touch the ground, but I saw the bottom of a cloud start to swirl and take on a tornado shape.
Since my fear developed because of an Easter Air Shuttle to DC that was so bad the flight attendents were screaming (I kid you not) that was because of torrential CBs over DC in the summer, thunderstorms, flying around them is a big fear.
Incoming flight diverted to FLL, comes back to PBI and the weather was still nasty but clearing up a bit. Still pouring, thiunder,lightning, but planes are taking off to the east where there are some breaks in the cloud and it looks less purple. They get on the PA and said that everyone should get on the plane NOW because we only have a small window before the weather turns bad again. That totally freaked me out.
Took the train back. Had to tell my boss (he was understanding, but I mean, is he really going to send me to those exotic places that he sent me this past year if he feels he can't rely on me? - prob not. I screwd that up pretty well) My wife was PO-ed and her birthday is in three weeks so she thinks I won't be able to make that flight. She can understand me not getting on the plane, but she can't understand me taking the train back. I can't either . Funny thing is, other than utterly humiliated, I feel that I am about the same as I was before this incident, but I mean, what happens if something similar happens, intellectually I know that they wouldn't willingly fly into dangerous weather, but you know, for that moment at the airport, it was the air shuttle again, with people screaming and crying (not just me) and I could NOT shake that feeling.
So I don't know where to go from here. I think in an average normal circumstance, I'd be OK, but the embarassment and the fact that nobody believes me now enough to rely on me is awful. Don't know what to do now.
Has this happened to people. What do you all suggest?
Definitely nervous but practised the strengthening exercises and the 5-4-3-2-1 exercies.
So I went to Florida to visit mom. Front along the east coast, no problem a little bumpy (pilots apologized) but I felt great. Imagined I was skimming a choppy sea (works better for me than Jell-o)
Got to PBI Tuesday night for the return flight and there was a huge thunderstorm over the airport, every TV in the airport bar was tuned to the "emergency weather frequency" talking about hail toradoes, cloud tops of 40,000 feet. The sky looked purple, black and greenish like I had never seen before, and well, I saw a funnel cloud (always wanted to see a tornado but not when I wasabout to get on a plane) weather was freaky. Didn't touch the ground, but I saw the bottom of a cloud start to swirl and take on a tornado shape.
Since my fear developed because of an Easter Air Shuttle to DC that was so bad the flight attendents were screaming (I kid you not) that was because of torrential CBs over DC in the summer, thunderstorms, flying around them is a big fear.
Incoming flight diverted to FLL, comes back to PBI and the weather was still nasty but clearing up a bit. Still pouring, thiunder,lightning, but planes are taking off to the east where there are some breaks in the cloud and it looks less purple. They get on the PA and said that everyone should get on the plane NOW because we only have a small window before the weather turns bad again. That totally freaked me out.
Took the train back. Had to tell my boss (he was understanding, but I mean, is he really going to send me to those exotic places that he sent me this past year if he feels he can't rely on me? - prob not. I screwd that up pretty well) My wife was PO-ed and her birthday is in three weeks so she thinks I won't be able to make that flight. She can understand me not getting on the plane, but she can't understand me taking the train back. I can't either . Funny thing is, other than utterly humiliated, I feel that I am about the same as I was before this incident, but I mean, what happens if something similar happens, intellectually I know that they wouldn't willingly fly into dangerous weather, but you know, for that moment at the airport, it was the air shuttle again, with people screaming and crying (not just me) and I could NOT shake that feeling.
So I don't know where to go from here. I think in an average normal circumstance, I'd be OK, but the embarassment and the fact that nobody believes me now enough to rely on me is awful. Don't know what to do now.
Has this happened to people. What do you all suggest?
